I haven’t written a blog post worth writing in nine months, and almost every single one starts out with a similar sentence about how I haven’t written any blog posts. So I guess this one isn’t that different, except MAYBE I’ll hit that publish button. The reason I’m writing tonight is because there’s been a…
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I’m not my mental illness, my mental illness is me
I know I’m fucked up. I know I do things that are hurtful, and that I change my mind often and drastically. I know my moods shift rapidly and unpredictably. My mental illness isn’t a separate entity, it is a defining factor in my personality. There is no depressed Tim, manic Tim, and normal Tim….
Will you cast the first stone?
In the Bible, in the gospel of John, the Pharisees brought a woman charged with adultery to Jesus as an attempt to discredit him. They asked him to be the judge, and under Mosaic law, her punishment was stoning. In a crazy twist, Jesus said “let he who is without sin cast the first stone”…
I got hacked!
Like an absolute dumbass, I got duped by a phishing scam and lost my Facebook AND Instagram accounts. While I still continue the appeal process, I’m also not holding my breath. So I’ve started a new Instagram! If you really love me, you’ll give me a shoutout and share my new profile so others know…
My decision to stop working amidst the pandemic
Millions of people have been unemployed since March, struggling to make ends meet and fearful for the day their benefits run out. Government response with assistance has been underwhelming, to put it mildly. A one time $1200 payout, $600 a week that ran out quickly, and unemployment benefits, which have a cap. I was out…
Reckoning with your generation
When you hear “sex, drugs, and rock and roll,” you generally think of rockstars and groupies, big parties backstage. Led Zeppelin and a fish. You don’t usually think lonely jaded teenagers trying to escape the pain of life. But the 90’s was a fucked up time, in hindsight. I spent a lot of time chasing…
Episodes
No, not the season premier of the Mandalorian, I mean mental health episodes. See, my entire day has been a mental health episode. From the moment I woke up until the time I’m writing this, and I’m sure until the time I lay down to sleep. Some days are like that. I can only hope…
Artists don’t get the praise they deserve
Artists pour their lives into their craft. They spend endless hours honing and sharpening skills that are particular and specific. Once their work is presented to the public through social media, they’re snubbed and receive little attention or appreciation for the time and effort they spent creating their masterpiece. AAAAAND I don’t give a shit….
Organize your thoughts: Set goals from chaos
Whenever there’s a lull between posts, it’s not because I have nothing to say. It’s usually because I have too much to say. So much that I can’t put the thoughts in order. I’m unable to focus on one thing long enough to formulate the words into coherent sentences, then spew them out in blog…
Monachopsis
I’ve been learning a lot of strange new words for strange intangible feelings. Mostly because I experience a lot of strange intangible feelings, and without words to name them, I feel lost. Sure, I could jump into how words are cages, and pigeonholing emotions and states of mind is faulty guesswork, but I think in…